If I could have known in advance, then I would have done everything completely differently, but I did not and wasted my time blaming myself for mistakes i made I had sex in exchange for attention from another person Sometimes i think my husband wants me to be uhappy to save me My father can\'t handle his fear and that\'s why he beats me I filmed nude because the body was the only thing I could manage without my mom control and the photographer raped me If i wasn\'t born, Mom would have left Dad My first overdose happened at the age of 14 I don\'t remember two days Sometimes I just don\'t know how to admit to myself that the connection was toxic because it means I make mistakes, so I make a fuss And more than anything, I love myself so strange and vulnerable\n\nmade in Thailand 2022, february
